2:30 AM
Hmmm.. so here i am
thinking once again.
what if u had a chance
to make things right.
that u can change to become that perfect
person. would u?
if life pushes you to go
to a whole level beyond your limit
will you?
If life made you to be just that
lil bit more patient.
will you?
It's a question?
questions for me.
but u can ask yourself too.
each of you reading this.
sometimes when we pray for a change
he won't change us but give us
opportunities to change.
to set urself right and push urself beyond ur
current limits.
Will u make that step to make things right?
though it seems impossible?
will you close your eyes and walk and just trust?
I prayer i can.
i really wanna be like that. patient, kind, understanding
loving... u know... that normal.
but what if u find urself growing but u also feel u're
clocking the miles between God and you?
But the thing is. Are you sure u're getting further?
sometimes in life things are the total opposite.
when u think he's furthest he's actually the nearest.
so take heed all of you.
for when you're most lonely he's already there
even before a word is said. sitting beside u reaching our for you.
that's him. u may not sense him. but take a look around next time
when u feel lonely
look at the birds or the trees, the beautiful creation of his
they're always smiling at you.
seeing how wonderful his creation is.
but now... i don't know where i am.
i wish i could be standing in this place where i see him smiling at me.
but i'm blinded. i'm lost.
i need patience, understanding and lotsa love.
i need to get straight again. set my path towards the sun. where light emits from so that when i reach it. i may also be part of this ever bright source from which all light comes from.
give me deliverance from all things.
give me peace.
I pray i may understand u more.
I pray i may learn to love u with all i am
I pray to have more patience with you.
For life i know strangles me at times.
pls pardon me. for neglecting your feelings.
written, poetic_tragedy